101 things to do in 1001 days

I am completely copying my friend on this find her list here-> http://wagstafffamily.wordpress.com/
So I really love the 3 year long term game this concept encourages. And I'm not sure what this list will look like, or what 101 things I'll decide on, but here I go!
1. Go to Disneyland
2. Grow my hair long for the next 3 years
3. Lose 40+more lbs
4. Sign up for a fitness competition
5. Compete in a fitness competition
6. 3 beach vacations
7. Watch less TV
8. Read the Book of Mormon as a family
9. Dance in my 1st recital
10. Organize my pantry
11. Organize my kitchen.
12. Get new flooring
13. Paint the kitchen and dining room
14. Decorate and paint the half bathroom
15. Attend 80 hours of asl workshop
16. Become silver in doTERRA
17. Become gold in doTERRA
18. Print every year family pictures on canvas.
19. Hang, said pictures, in gallery fashion.
20. Put my rheumatoid arthritis in remission
21. Visit my brother and his family in HousMake22. Read 4 books(fiction)
23. Read 3+ self help books
24. Mediate 15 minutes a day
25. Speak positively
26. Make chore list with my kids.
27. Pay off mini van
28. After mini van is paid off stay out of all debt.
29. Save 10% in savings until $10,000 is saved.
30. Save for a replacement car for Gregg
31. Put $500 in each child savings account.
32. Work a continuous 8 hours at Sorenson per week.
33. Monthly Temple attendance.
34. Be a better mother (patient, positive, kind, loving, nurturing, educating)
35-37 Develop 3 new skills (martial arts of some sort, singing, and dancing.
38. Run 3 5ks
39. Do the splits
40. Sing more
41. Dance more
42. Play more
43. Clean more
44. Stress less
45. Simplify holidays, especially Christmas
46. Be more social
47. Buy more makeup
48. Learn new application skills
49. Share my talents
50. Go skiing, or snow boarding

50 seriously almost fried my remaining braincells... And spent all my money. But I'm sure I'll feel up to finishing some other time. Hope this inspires others & my self, as my friends have inspired me.

51. Finish this list.

Surviving the Holidays

The ups and downs of the holidays are killing me. not really killing me as much as the tempations of the holidays are. I love food, the good, bad and the ugly. So when my sweet neighbors bring their sweet gifts, I go crazy trying to pretend not eating them is so easy, but it's so so so not easy! I have resorted to making my favorite healthy cookie balls, and snack on those instead, it's helping but not the answer. This is where I meed to call down on a higher power for strength, seriously! I know I'm not alone in this journey, and whenever I ask God for help, he delievers! Also support from family and friends is iffy at best( no offense ) But this is my journey not theirs, so I can't complain. My support comes from my like-minded Terrafit group of 5, God, and my desire for change. Am I perfect, HE Doubble hockey sticks NO! But A cheat meal once a week is justabout there. I still struggle and with the holidays, plus trying to cram 24 work hours in a week so I can keep my vrs job. But the shifts have been starting for me at 6am!! ugh, and I am so not a morning person, so needless to say I am a sleepy hot mess. I had displayed more human errors from lack of sleep this last week than I have in the last month, and making mistakes is my mo, so that's saying alot!! Anyways, any Healthy, skinny, positive comments, words or thoughts sent my direction would be greatly appreciated at this juncture in my life. Update on weightloss 4weeks down, and also 18.5lbs down too! I want to loose another 15lbs this next month. Wish me luck!

Journey Journaling"Transformation in Progress "

(My feelings on weight loss verbally written through my word to text). Where to even start I've been on this journey for a very long time one might say my entire life. I love to eat and I love food and I love to sit and watch TV. I also love to exercise and I love all food including the healthy stuff. I did not get here by accident, and I did not arrive here on purpose. I got here thoughtlessly and I'm getting out of here with every thought , every inspirational message, story or intelligence that I can muster. I follow any and everyone that I am inspired by on Instagram. And I have tried many different routes to achieve transformation. The last, and the part I'm expressing right now is the one that's working. I am healing myself from the inside out. Healing hurts. Hurt hurts. But it's been the best thing that I've done for myself for weight loss in all of my years. I started looking and inwardly of why I couldn't give up 10 chocolate chips today, or 10 potato chips, or buttery popcorn or diet soda. I discovered something... I was still hurt, I still had a wound that had not healed from years ago that would not allow me to move on in weight loss. Here's a story: I lost weight, to goal weight one time, I was 21, I just finished doing Weight Watchers for 2.5 months and lost 25 pounds. I felt great and I looked great. All the boys I was liking started asking me out, & I started dating my favorite boy of all, my first boyfriend, at 21. So I had a few hang ups because what had really changed in two and a half months? In my opinion nothing I was the same Shanna I had always been. The only thing was I looked a little different, and I got so much attention for it. Now don't let me fool you I love the spotlight on occasion, but this was different, it bothered me. I value my personality and character so much that I had worked on over the years, I felt so confused. People liked me by the way I looked, whether they knew me or not. 5 weeks after losing the weight I went on a mission. In the MTC I was given letters of admiration including addresses and phone numbers form those admirers. This happened often and I had no idea what to do with that attention. You see in high school I was all to only one school dance and that was my only date I had ever been asked on before I had my boyfriend. I'm the textbook definition of a late bloomer. So that attention continued the rest of my mission and after while I was in dating years. It decreased a little after the mission I must admit as I had put on 10 pounds. But it wasn't so much that it distracted the gentleman suitors. I later found the man of my dreams and got married and he loved me for me 100 percent he saw everything, my goofy side- serious side and loved all of it. As soon as we got married I put on the happy 15 that happens when you marry the man of your dreams, and five months later got pregnant with her first child. And the weight came back... my shield, my protection my comfort! I was thrilled. Or I should say my subconscious was thrilled. I've tried a lot of different things to lose the weight but most of them just ended with me being healthier not lighter. Fast-forward eight years later, and more than less I still have baby weight from baby #1, even though I had baby #3 about 18 months ago.
So why transformation and why now? because I changed my false beliefs into true beliefs. I figured because of my past that if I had lost the wait I would get unwanted male attention. But in reality I changed my belief to, when I am healthy and at a healthy weight I will be a better wife mother friend and self. I will have more energy. I will feel happier. & I will be around longer to enjoy my family and posterity. That was all it took a big change in a false belief a removal of fear, and an embrace of truth. I am almost one week into the next 90 days of my transformation. The program is called terrafit and I will win. I will lose 60 pounds in 90 days well 84 days, as it's more of a 12 week program then the 90 day program. This first week I'm trying to lose 20 pounds! Every morning I wake up at 5:45 and do a workout upstairs(TERRAfit DVDs) while my husband does work out downstairs. I also on Tuesdays go to a Moms dance class, and on Wednesdays play volleyball at our church. Thursdays I clean. And Fridays I try to exercise as much around the house as I can. This helps with the extra calories I need to burn. I eat 6 meals a day 4 to 8 servings of vegetables and drink a hundred ounces of water. A big way, for me to get in all my vegetables,  is through smoothies, and salads with clean dressing. I know I will win because I have told myself that when we win I'm taking the family to Disneyland and that's all I need to go on. I envision me and my family walking around Disneyland me looking incredible feeling incredible enjoying a churro once I get there haha. Energy is been good it fluctuates on what I've eaten I've been eating very clean today and I feel like I need maybe a little bit of fat so I'll have a protein shake with some peanut butter to give me a little boost. I'm recording this for myself if anyone ever reads this which I don't recommend haha, this is verbally spoken and technology isn't perfect so excuse the errors. Transformation is in progress.

I am a ....

WOMAN, wife, strong, mother, happy, friendly, capible, committed, confident, sensitive, and dog gone it, people like me! Now if I could just be consistant with losing weight!!

I'm back

I have been meaning to update sooner that this, but either way I am back. I have had the body bugg now for a couple of weeks, and am fascinated with the calorie burn!! I should be tracking my food better, and that is probably my biggest fault in this journey, guess I'm not too lazy to eat, just too lazy not to write it down, and therefore not having the success that comes with that. hmmpff, I'm frustrating! But it's a new week, starting a new MONDAY!! YAY!! So here's to a freash start, i'm sick of maintaing, and ready to lose!
Thanks for tuning in

My progress so far.

I am not starting this blog at the beginning of the year, because it's my resolution to lose weight, I'm already in the middle of my journey. I have been through so much, so far in this journey, and my goal with this blog is to be as honest as possible and to track my progress until goal. So to start, I'll recap my journey in the year 2011.

2011! By Jan. I had put on the normal holiday weight, of about 10lbs, and I just had so many bad habits the pounds kept creeping up until I reached the heaviest I had ever been outside of pregnancy. I got sick of it, and decided HCG was the next step for me. I did it strictly as can be for 21days (3weeks), figuring I can do anything for three weeks, I did, but it was a miserable 3 weeks for me, Gregg and the kids. Because of the extremes on this diet, Gregg NEVER wants me to do it again,ha ha, even tho I tried 2-3 more times, it was increasingly harder, and I would abandon ship after 1-2 weeks. I lost 20lbs though and it was a great jumping off point for me.

Summer came and went, I did gain a little. Sick of that pattern, at the end of Sept. I joined Weight Watchers, thanks to some encouraging words form a friends blog, Ashley Gosselin. As I went about my business doing that, I met a new friend in my ward named Raegan Wilson, who had been on this journey too, but with WAY MORE SUCCESS!! She and I are great friends, and she inspires me to walk in her foot steps. She is down 74lbs since Jan 2011. I have had about -16lbs of success since then, and made it through the holidays without a gain, so I feel like quite a winner. The over all weight loss in 2011 was 30lbs!! Woo Hoo for me :-)

I am starting the new year with this blog, and with hopes of the ultimate success of goal weight. I have "big" plans come August so I have til then to loose as much as possible and be as healthy as can be. I will chart my weekly progress here, so if at all interested tune in. I will chart my lb loss, my weekly exercise, and my thoughts and feelings. Thanks for all those interested enough in this journey of my to tune in.